Friday, December 29, 2017

God is Answering Prayers about My Health


I have not been suddenly healed, yet.

Instead, God has sent me information and education through various people.

I still deal with the uncertainty about the cause of my chest pains. I do not yet know how serious it might be. I need to keep requesting prayers and take action steps one day at a time.

I have learned that there are Christian health share plans. But the cheapest health share plans are about 160 a month. Yet I can afford about 30 a month these days.

I talked with an independent insurance agent that comes by monthly to help people like me in this apartment complex. He said that I am eligible for Medicare the month I turn 65. So that will be April 1, 2018. He will then guide me through the many options. The federal government will pick up most of the cost. My premiums could from 109 to 138.

So I need to stay alive and reasonably well until then. Plus I need to make progress in making and marketing online ecourses and online communities so that I can increase my income streams to afford those premiums through Christian health share plans or the Medicare subsidized one.

Meanwhile, I set an appointment at Hope Clinic for Wednesday, January 3 at 130.

They will give me an indication as to the cause of the minor pains in my upper right chest that have recently included the lower right shoulder.

They will have lists of referrals to experts in nearby and in Dallas. The insurance agent said that there is a Baylor facility that is a 10-minute drive from here in Waxahachie. He has a client that goes there for heart treatments.


WAIT
So I back to that four letter Bible word W-A-I-T.

Waiting is not pleasant but God uses it to develop my faith.

There are several lanes of waiting for me including the following.

I wait until the appointment in a few days. Then they will say what they guess are the issues.

They will likely want to take a sample of my blood and test it. So I will need to wait for those results.

I wait until April first to qualify to get subsidized insurance through Medicare.

I wait until I have the income to afford those premiums.

I wait until I go to a cardio appointment and get those results.

Note that my father had major heart bypass surgery many years ago.




NATURAL
A friend gave me some Turmeric today. I had not heard of it before. But many on the internet say that it is very helpful. I have already put in on some steamed mixed vegetables. I will add it to my morning smoothie.  And I will continue to use it long after the symptoms have passed because evidently, those in India have been using it medicinally for centuries. That is the kind of direction I choose to follow.

God created the human body with an amazing immune system to fight off all kinds of troubles. Then our modern society brings air pollution, lots of stress, and processed foods that are not the best for us. The Bible says that God gave us herbs for healing.

I would far rather intake natural substances to gradually achieve complete healing than to take some pharmaceuticals that will quickly relieve the symptoms yet impact other systems in my body that I could not measure.

Note that I am unwilling to take prescription drugs as needed. But those artificial chemicals will impact organs in ways the experts do not fully understand. And there may be traces that remain until my last day that could disturb the natural balances of the interactive systems for wellness.


THEOLOGY
I live in the constant awareness that God knows every choice I make and the most intimate intentions of my heart. I seek to live out my faith in Jesus Christ by first turning to Him in prayer and prayer requests. Then to turn to natural things I can change like my diet and exercise. Then to herbs that He provided. And finally to man-made drugs and surgery.

Jesus is my Lord. I am not my own. I was bought at the price of His precious blood. I have the stewardship of this physical body that the Bible says is the temple of the Holy Spirit.

So my theology informs my priorities and my prayer requests.

I believe that God is all knowing and all powerful. I want to be seen by Him at primarily leaning on Jesus to guide, provide and heal. I want God to know that deep in my heart I fully trust Him to take care of me at every level.

Jesus is my Healer. If God wants me healed then that will happen in His time.

My ongoing assignment is to trust and obey the guidance of my Good Shepherd daily. Amen?


PRAYER
Please pray for God to use this season of waiting to improve my faith in Him.

Pray for God to raise up and inspire more than enough intercessors for this season.

Pray for me to know the truth about what is happening in my body.

Pray for me to be given wise and clear guidance about actions to take that might include alerting my diet, improving my exercise, taking targeted nutritional supplements, taking the right prescriptions, and finally undergoing suitable surgery if needed.


THANKS again for your prayers.

Shalom

John

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Possible Heart Trouble -- No Health Insurance -- Pray for My Health and Safety


SUMMARY
I went to the Obamacare website and learned that I cannot afford health care. The monthly premium was 908 a month with 7350 deductible. I only make 683 a month from my social security retirement. Even if I could magically afford that, then I would pay 20 for my Rx that costs 25. I could save 5 a month by paying 908.

I learned that the State of Texas will not subsidize my health care. I was given a special code to put on my taxes so I do not pay the penalty. See the attachment.

Description of my possible heart troubles follows.

So I request your best prayers for my health and safety.


HIGHLIGHTS
I do my best to eat healthy foods and I take a walk daily.

I rarely get sick. I may get the flu for a few days every few years.

I cannot control drunk drivers or others hitting cars when I am riding.

I trust the Lord Jesus Christ to keep me healthy and safe.

The medicine that I take daily is for my prostate. It is normal for men of my age to have BPH. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Benign_prostatic_hyperplasia

When I am taking the medicine I do not need to urinate frequently.

When I was at the homeless shelter I went to Parkland. My clinic visits and medicine was free to me.

That perspiration expired and those in Ennis pointed me to Hope Clinic. http://call4hope.org/ They use a sliding scale based on income.

All of that is simple enough. I go to the clinic and get a new prescription. BUT there is a huge compilation.

I have been having MINOR pains in my chest on the upper right side. At first, I thought I had just pulled a muscle. But this has gone on for more than 3 weeks. The MINOR pains come and go.


DETAILS
I have stayed in the hospital one time back in 1996. That was after a hit and run accident that nearly killed me. Thus I request prayers for me as on the road.

Also, most injuries happen in the home. So please pray for my safety at home too.

Normally I have been very healthy all my life. I went 30 years and only saw a doctor 5 times.

Here are my concerns. I need to pay for ANY doctor visits, medicine, and tests out of pocket. I do not have any savings. I get by from month to month.

There are people I can contact on to help me financially. I am willing to do that like I did to afford my dentures.

I have faith in God that there will be enough money for me right on time.

BUT the medical establishment is a complex and costly system.

I have not hurt enough to go to an Emergency Room. If I did then they would send me a bill that is not small.

Basically, I have a moderate tolerance for pain. If I learned from reputable sources that I just need to live with it, then I could.

If these are warning signs of a possible heart attack or stroke then, OK. I am willing to take any tests, anywhere and anytime. BUT where is the best place to do that? Shall I seek those tests in Dallas or here in Ennis?

If and when I go to get tests related to my heart, then what? We are in a culture where doctors order some unnecessary tests. They want to cover themselves in case there are lawsuits later.
I understand and accept that, but I do not have health insurance. So where I go to get tests is a big question.
I do not want to foolishly minimize or maximize such tests. I do not want to just go with the cheapest option. I do not want to work with a doctor I cannot stand.

Here are my priorities for my health care:
  1. Eat the most healthy foods that I can afford.
  2. Take nutritional supplements as needed.
  3. Engage in moderate exercise regularly.
  4. Request prayers and expect healing or guidance to next steps.
(Note I have been healed in my body due to prayers dozens of times.)
  1. Consider alternative medicine like therapeutic massage and acupressure.
  2. Take prescription medicine as directed.
  3. Reserve surgery as a last alternative.

CONCLUSION
I will soon call Hope Clinic for an appointment.

May God grant them wisdom and understanding about my condition.

May God guide and provide for the next step.

May I become totally healed soon.

Shalom
John

Wednesday, December 13, 2017

Star Wars has Theology, Doctrines and an Online Temple of Jedi Order


Star Wars is not just a hugely popular group of movies but it is more.

I came on the following materials that opened my eyes to the deeper levels of this.

While I enjoy the movies, I do not obsess over the matters between viewings. Yet there are millions of passionate fans all over the world that have the posters, action figures, and costumes a part of their life.

There are untold numbers of fan-based websites that track every detail. Here is an example http://starwars.wikia.com/wiki/Wookieepedia:Welcome,_newcomers

Disney bought the franchise and will likely produce a movie each year for a very long time. They will also sell products that will appeal to children. So this will be deeply in the thinking of many millions of people for decades.

Note that there is no such marketing machine as Disney behind Star Trek, the Matrix or Downton Abbey.

I am not saying that all this is bad, evil or wrong. It is a cultural matter that crosses generations and countries. As Christians, we need to be alert to the messages that are indirectly being communicated in a very appealing way. It addressed religious themes using storytelling.

These next few videos made me aware of the worldview or theology and doctrines that are suggested by dialogue, the key moments in the movies and the repeated themes.

Notice what is said during the very first of the Lessons from Toda video. It says that people are converting to Jedi as their religion. And on census data in many countries that is a growing trend. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jedi_census_phenomenon


Star Wars Symbolism: Lessons from Yoda


According to the Temple of the Jedi Order here are the key doctrines defined and some text sermons.

46 text sermons


What comes to my attention is that Scientology began in 1954 and it is based on science fiction kinds of themes. They claim to be a church and are in many countries.

Mormonism began in the 1820 and is growing still. It came out of nowhere. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mormonism

I am not advocating a boycott or sermons against Star Wars.

I am asking you as an individual and especially as a parent to be alert to the indirect messages.

One of the many roles that I find myself in as a writer is that of a watchman on the wall. I have the opportunity as a retired person to do more research and reflection than before retirement.

I seek to be a good steward of my time and talents for the glory of God.

I have many other kinds of messages to offer. My intention is to always communicate the truth in love. I trust that the truth will set people free. I must wrap any truth that I share in love.

Please pray for God to grant me wisdom and discernment about this and related matters. May the Lord grant me eyes to see and ears to hear. May He use me to communicate truth-filled messages in loving ways to the Body of Christ. May He prepare them to receive and respond in timely ways.

That is the core of my message this time. Now for your bonuses.

BONUSES
Carrie Fisher played Princess Leia first in 1977 at 20 years old.

She died in 2016, yet boys and girls that are not yet born will fall in love with her.

A Tribute To Carrie Fisher


Note in this video that her mother, Debbie Reynolds, died the very next day. But future generations will not fall in love with Debbie and wear costumes like her in the coming years.

The Untold Truth Of Carrie Fisher



Did you know that the color of the lightsaber has meaning?

Star Wars Symbolism: Lightsabers



It is said that the first Star Wars movie was saved in editing.

How Star Wars was saved in the edit



What George Lucas says about the background, deep themes and his motives.

George Lucas talks good and evil, mythology, religion, creativity

GEORGE LUCAS ON GOD


In these and other interviews I have seen George Lucas says he asked the question as a child that if there is one God then why are there so many religions. He pondered this for many years. And came to be mentored by Joseph Campbell who compared and drew out the common themes of the myths of all centries and all peoples. He wanted to bring the core concepts of those many myths to this modern generation. So consider that many generations ago people quoted the Greek plays and Shakespeare. These days they quote popular lines on Star Wars. This informs their worldview and how they see their place in life.

Lucas says that he believes there is a God and the many religions are different containers for faith. That is not a Christian message. But it is a welcomed relief from the loud mouth atheists.

Shalom
Brother John

P. S. I invite your comments.

Friday, August 25, 2017

Lord Help Me Get UNSTUCK

Lord Help Me Get UNSTUCK

SUMMARY
I have felt stuck recently.

There are moments that I feel overwhelmed by all that I feel inspired to do.

There are moments that I feel guilty that I have not been cranking out lots of lessons each week

But I cannot seem to get moving.

As I have prayed, what occurs to me is a need for an overall and long term strategic plan.

That will serve as the greater context for my lessons and others online aids.

It will briefly state the deepest motivations that God has put into my heart.

Please forward this to the best intercessors that you know.



INTRODUCTION
I find myself at a season when I must gain much more CLARITY about the will of God for my life and especially online ministry.

This strategic plan will become a central, simple and compelling motivation to guide my thoughts, plans and actions.

I have had plenty of time and energy but I have failed to make progress on the many projects that I had planned to be doing when I got to this apartment in Ennis.

I have collected and organized the possible lessons to put online. Those include the following.

Let’s Pray Better about why and how to pray more effectively.
Thanking God Often about prompts toward genuine gratitude to God daily
Remembering God’s Love about simple meditations related to Holy Communion.

Plus there are MANY more that I will not list here.



PAST
In the past I have written many online articles, made many blog posts, preached many sermons, shared hundreds of links, published large mind maps, published short videos and slideshows.

Over the decades I have studied time management and personal productivity. I have learned much about project management to get big chunks of the overall plan done and task management to juggle the action steps for each week and day. But most of those lessons came from those who worked for huge corporations that already had a BIG picture strategic plan to offer the context for the workers.

I have studied startups for businesses and nonprofits. They emphasize the importance of carefully defining the mission, vision and values. ALL the plans and choices need to root back to these simple summaries that can be stated on a few pages.

Since the year 2000 I have started but not completed many business plans. I could not handle guessing the future financials. But there were great questions to think about the purposes, priorities, and audiences that gave me many insights.


PRESENT
Recently I have been writing far more in my journal than normal. I have been seeking to get in touch with what I want at the deepest levels. I have been writing about my passions, concerns, burdens, divine guidance, biblical motivations, and much more. I have filled many pages and I am starting to see the complex mosaic of my internal life.

I have recently collected links to strategic planning templates.  Each one is different yet they are all similar. Pray for me to invest lots of high quality time dealing with them. Then I need to craft a version for me that uses the best of those.

I have an abundance of notes from the previous work that I can weave together in a way that suits my current season.


WHY
There are several reasons why this is essential these days for me.

Every week I think of yet another creative way to minister online. I put the short name of that option on one of my many large online mind maps. It would take me 300 years working full time to develop all of those if I never get one more creative idea.

I do not have an internal filter to say YES or NO to such options. And even for the ones that are the most appealing, I do not have a wise way to put them into a logical sequence.

Over the years people have told me to just do something. And that is what I did but there is no unity, harmony, direction or purpose to the many online units. And there is no core blueprint to guide taking the many ideas on the mind maps and making them into online realities.

Some online teachers say you must focus on your audience. Get to know exactly who you will serve. Research their problems, questions and pains. Then offer products and services to help them. That is wise. But there are many and various audiences that I care about and by choosing one I am ignoring others. But a deep seated purpose could help me sort this out.

There is a saying that a mist in the pulpit leads to a fog in the pews. When I am super clear about the purpose and direction of my ministry then I can share it will others most effectively.


HOLISTIC
Recently I talked with a man that works for an evangelism ministry. We had a long and lively conversation. I had many links and resources to share with him. Personal evangelism is his world and he knows many people like him. He and others like him assumed I was one of his tribe. While we resonate with personal evangelism, it is not the whole picture for me. Evangelism without discipleship is incomplete in my book.

I lived at a homeless shelter for 3 years and I preached at a church for homeless people. There was an unstated assumption that ALL they needed was evangelism, Bible sermons and food. But very few experienced major life changes. There are deep internal wounds and complex personal issues that need to be addressed.

I worked as the house manager of a sober house for 2 years. The assumption was that all they needed was to attend 12 step meetings and get an entrance level job. They were not offered career counseling to cope with the stress of an entry level job. Nor were they pushed to do a fourth step personal inventory that dug into the internal issues that motivated them to abuse drugs. So 90 percent relapsed and went back to drug addiction.

I worked at a seminary for 12 years. There there the assumption was that if the students read enough books, attended enough lectures and wrote enough papers they would become great Christian leaders. Yet there was very little emphasis on spiritual formation, community service, or prevailing intercession. The missionary students that I gravitated to were willing to make practical applications of the book learning.

During the past 40 years I have never been mentored. I have been coached a few times briefly. It amazes me that the corporate world embraces mentoring and coaching Yet it is rare in the body of Christ. There are lots of Bible verses and presidents in church history, if we had eyes to see.

God delivered me from alcohol abuse, drug abuse, promiscuity and a New Age cult at 23 years old. I have been a zealous disciple of Christ since my rebirth on January 16, 1977. I have had to go to many parachurch organizations to satisfy my deep desire for spiritual growth. Most church members seem satisfied with what they get there. But the Bible offers so much more than a pastor can pack into a sermon and even a Sunday school class or small group Bible study.


FUTURE
I am not totally clueless about how the Lord Jesus Christ is guiding me.

I do know that in the coming weeks, months and years I will be teaching and preaching online. I will be using those methods to share the wisdom, insights and understandings that God has granted to me. There are times that I feel very energized to preach on a certain part of the Scriptures. There are other times that the Holy Spirit connects the dots between some verses to show me new spiritual light. Lord willing, in the future I will have developed a way to go with the flow. I will gracefully get those promptings online easily in an orderly way. That will bless others long after I had published them.

I will surely continue to share links to resources that are intended to equip Christian leaders. These will be offered both to individuals as needed, as well as some kind of an online orderly database.

Besides connecting people to resources I want to connect them to other people. So there will be online membership communities that are interactive.

Sooner or later I will be conducting online interviews with Christians and sharing them. Over the decades I have met a wide variety of people. I have asked them lots of probing questions. They have opened up to me. I have been blessed by this. I have wanted to share this and someday I will begin to record and share those interviews. Most interviews on TV and the radio are of super stars in their fields. I have learned that ordinary people have inspiring and insightful tales to tell.

I want to have lively discussions online about theology, apologetics, current events, Bible doctrines, demographic trends, missions matters, and more. This will not appeal to most people. But there are a few that will gravitate to this. Plus we need a user friendly sounding board where Christian leaders can share and get feedback. It is written that iron sharpens iron. But that cannot happen when a Christian is isolated or just talking into the echo chamber of like-minded people.


BLESSED
God has bountifully blessed me in the following ways.

Receive a social security retirement  income
Live in a peaceful apartment
Have the hardware, software, online services and techie knowledge to use them  
Have had a wide range of previous experiences
Have done an abundance of online research
Have an abundance of notes from previous projects
Have contacts with lots of intercessors
Have the health and strength to keep moving forward
Have a calling on my life that I cannot deny or ignore
Have testimonies of answered prayers from impossible situations
Have a complex batch of inspirations on how to minister online


HOPE
Here is what I hope will be parts of my future as God answers many prayers.

Have an initial strategic plan that is reviewed and revised periodically
Have projects based on the strategic plan, that unfolds in an orderly way
Have active relationships with accountability partners, to stay on track
Have active relationships with intercessors, that God uses mightily
Have active relationships with advisers, that God uses to give valuable inputs
Have active relationships with donors, that God uses to keep growing the ministry
Consistently publish new educational modules online
Gracefully grow interactive online membership communities
Develop synergistic systems to effectively market the various offerings
Effectively grow large email lists that are segmented according to interest
Afford to pay coaches and consultants as needed
Raise up and support the volunteers to help with the many projects as they mature
Increase the income streams of donations, sales of digital products and memberships



PRAYER
I request your best prayers.

Please pray earnestly for me now and later.

What I need now and until my last day is much prayer.

My father is 94 years old. Both of my grandfathers lived to be 83. I do my best to take care of my health. I eat as healthy as I can afford and I exercise nearly every day. SO I expect to live to be at least 80 years old.

I am now 64 years old. SO what I am seeking from God at this season is His guidance in how to best move forward in the coming years and even decades. I want a strategic plan to guide my choices and commitments to projects. It will determine who I reach out to and what I offer them. It will be used to enroll supports so that we will travel this adventure together with me.

The strategic plan will be reviewed and revised as needed. But I need such core structure to guide me and to help me enroll then guide others.

May God guide me to use the strategic planning templates to both stimulate new thinking and have a context for my previous thinking.

May I both focus on this for as long as is needed to get it to a suitable place of completion and not get stuck here in excessive planning.

One of my weaknesses is to plan excessively and postpone productivity too much.

May God grant me victory over my tendencies of perfectionism and procrastination.

May I make many bold action steps when the time is ripe and may God give me victory over my fears of rejection, failure and success.



NEXT
Along this journey I will need to enroll and work with accountability partners. Today I do not have the clarity to state what I need to be held accountable for in the short or long terms. Pray for God to guide me to both get clear about the long term and big picture parts as well as the practical goals, objectives and tasks needed each week. Those will be communicated to a few accountability partners who God will use to keep me from getting stuck like this again.

The strategic plan will not suddenly come together. There are many parts that need to be considered and woven into a whole. As it is written it will be subject to improvements both initially and in the years to come. SO even now I plan to put key parts of the strategic plan online in chunks well before it is polished and ready to share with strangers. I will invite selected people to read it so that they can pray over it and comment. I will invite the advice of those who have led churches and parachurch organizations as well as missionaries. I want the inputs from those with a variety of experiences, education, spiritual gifts, personality types, theological perspectives, etc.

At the start of this long message I mentioned the 3 sets of lessons that are inside my heart and want to be expressed soon. As a reminder they are as follows:

Let’s Pray Better about why and how to pray more effectively.
Thanking God Often about prompts toward genuine gratitude to God daily
Remembering God’s Love about simple meditations related to Holy Communion.

Also inside my heart are all the executive management and vision casting parts that I mentioned here. They want to come into order.

Inside of me this feels like a massive log jam. It is like hundreds of logs floated down a river and they got tangled up so that none of them can move. I hope that a strategic plan will be used by God to unjam these and get me unstuck.

Previously what the Lord prompted me to do was to make a website that I call Brother John’s Workshop. On that site I could use it as a place to show and tell the various projects that are in different states of completion. It might serve as a place to get prayers and advice to keep them moving along until I was ready to share them with the public. Pray for that website to become a reality soon.

Previously the Lord prompted me to make a short video daily. This is called a vlog. It is like an update about any and all parts of my life. All the materials here in this long text document could be presented as a many short vlog entries. Also there would be messages of a more personal nature about my likes, dislikes, health, experiences, etc. Long ago I felt the Lord prompted me to aim for 30 vlog messages in 30 days and then 60 messages in 60 days and 90 messages in 90 days. When I reach 90 messages then it would be a deep seated habit. The internal stuck stuff could not build up.


CONCLUSION
This is a very long message. It would take about 8 pages to print out. I greatly appreciate you and each person other that has read this far. It is not a common kind of update. But this is where I am at today. This kind of message is best addressed to an executive business coach that is a strong Christian. I do not know such a person today. But, surely if I searched online I could find one. However, I could not afford their fee. Maybe, God will guide me to find a person to sponsor such a fee or find a coach that would work with me for free. That is worthy of your best prayers.

If you know such a person that could help me as an executive coach or sponsor that fee then please reply.

When I have studied how to launch an online course called an ecourse they stated that you need to start with an email list of 10 thousand as a minimum. They made a big deal of a person that started with only 2 thousand subscribers and within a few months got to an income stream to afford to quit their corporate job. Well today I have much less than 1 hundred individuals that I sent this out to today. So your prayers and feedback are super important to me these days.

It would be a HUGE help if you would PLEASE share this with the best intercessors you know. More than executive coaching what I need is much prevailing prayer. There is a spiritual warfare facet of why I have been stuck. I do not want to blame the devil for all my troubles. But when this finally gets going it will be used of God to send the light of Christ to dispel much spiritual darkness.

PROMISES
There are many ways to pray. And one way to pray is to claim a promise in the Bible and stand on it by faith. It is called standing on the promises. The Bible says that God does not lie and that He watches over His word to perform it.

The promises of God are yes and amen. The New Covenant is based on promises that are the inheritance of the children of God.

There are some very big God sized requests here. But nothing is impossible with God and through Christ I can do all things.

I seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness so I expect that all these things will be added to me.

I ask for wisdom and it is written that God will grant me His wisdom when I request it.

God began a good work in my life and He carry it to completion.

God sent His only Son as the Savior. If He gave such a glorious gift will He not also give lesser gifts to accomplish His will on this earth to evangelize, disciple and equip many people?

What is a Bible promise that comes to your attention related to this message?

How can I best pray and request others to pray about these matters?

Do you have comments, suggestions or questions?

Please feel free to reply.

Also you can print this out to take with you to the prayer closet.

You can forward this to intercessors.

Shalom

Brother John