Good Bye Procrastination and Perfectionism

Lord willing I will pay for three more nights at the homeless shelter this evening.

My stay there has not been pleasant but it is acceptable.

On a scale of 1 to 10 here is how I would rate the following:

3 homeless shelter

4 rooming and boarding house where I had lived many years ago

5 sober house

6 motel

9 missionary housing

10 my own apartment without a roommate

Right now I accept that this is just a temporary arrangement.

I can continue to endure this for a while.

My top priority is not to maximize my comfort or convenience.

I need to stay focused on launching the ministry.

That will happen as I get the crowd funding platform online.

Even when that is operating I will be getting ready for road trips.

So this is a season to remain flexible and fluid.

Then after the road trips I will choose a headquarters for the educational nonprofit.

That is when I will be ready and willing to settle down again.

What most people do not know is that I have been living this kind of way for decades.

During the 1980s and 1990s there was much uncertainty in my life.

My housing situation changed lots of times.

That was before email and I needed to mail out updates with prayer requests.

God made a way for me to survive those years.

God will continue to take care of me in the coming years.

I am grateful for your prayers.

God is answering your prayers in amazing ways.

My sinus troubles are not nearly as bad as they had been when at the shelter.

Pray for me to find a workable rhythm for these days.

Generally I do my best work late at night and then wake up late.

But I cannot work on my laptop at the homeless shelter.

I leave there before 8 AM and come to this community college.

I can work here about one or two hours.

Then I get physically stiff or mentally dry.

I get up and walk around downtown a while.

I need to regulate my food intake more carefully.

I have both eaten too much and too little.

That has thrown off my energy level.

I have a general idea of the kinds of videos I will be making soon.

They fall into five new channels that I will describe next time.

Each channel has a different kind of content and special audience.

All of these pave the way for doing the road trips and enroll the most support.

I have been spending much time on two mind maps sorting out these matters.

I had fully expected to have a few videos online before now.

I have been wondering why that has not happened.

Then in the providence of God I came on the following message.

It says that many people get stuck due to a blend of perfectionism and procrastination.

Basically I already know the first videos are going to be less than excellent.

So I keep finding ways to delay making them.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tcvXcZd5TSQ

That is understandable at some level.

But it must stop.

I need to go ahead and put online some videos very soon.

Then I can make improvements.

Please pray earnestly that I get the victory over procrastination and perfectionism.

Early this morning I was blessed by the Lord.

As I was getting up the Holy Spirit reminded me of my deepest passions.

I had lost touch with fire in my belly that got this ministry going years ago.

For a long time I lay in bed and saw images in my mind’s eye.

I felt what it would be like for this ministry to impact poor people globally.

Please pray for God to inspire and encourage me like that often.

UPDATE

•       I plan to stay at the homeless shelter the next 3 nights and maybe more.

•       Pray for the quality and restfulness of my sleep.

•       Pray for me to get over my procrastination and perfectionism so I will publish videos online soon.

PRAYER

God You made the human body with a need for sleep. That need is obvious. But You can bless the quality of rest during the night of sleep. You can cause refreshment of the mind and body. I ask You do to that for me during these difficult days.

God You made the human body with a need for food. That need is obvious. But Lord sometimes I eat too much or too fast due to my emotional struggles. And sometimes I neglect getting enough to eat. Jesus guide me in what to eat, when to eat it and may I enjoy the eating. Lord bless my digestion and elimination so that I do not have gas or constipation like I have had during times of major transitions.

God You made the human body, mind and emotions with the need for rest and fun. That need is not always obvious to me Lord. I admit I tend to work constantly except when I sleep. Gradually and gracefully Jesus Christ lead me to have a more balanced and emotionally whole life.

Shalom